Outside the day is cloudy & overcast, like the sky could open up at any point & rain down. This seems fitting for how my spirit feels today. Cloudy & overcast, like at any point I could sit down & the tears could overtake me. Their is so much despair & worry following me around like a storm cloud.
One thing that is weighing heavy on me is about my Paw-Paw, the same one I wrote about here. This coming Monday the 26th he will be having heart surgery to implant a pacemaker as well as an ablation on his heart. I don't really know the full details of the surgery but I do know this is a safer surgery than they were originally planning on doing. That being said he is 85 yrs old & any surgery much less a heart surgery is risky. Drew & I are heading to FL on Saturday to be there with my family. I wish so much that my hubby could be there with me but right now that is just not feasible. I have not allowed myself to think about the 'what ifs', if I dwell on them they would overtake me. That being said those thoughts have managed to creep in & the tears start pouring down. I have to stop myself from not drowning in emotion.
"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake."
Psalm 23:1-3
Another person weighing on my heart is a sweet lady from our previous church, Beverly. She is the wife of the church administrator, Bryan, that the GD worked with for 5 yrs. Beverly was dx several years ago with breast cancer. After surgery & chemo, her cancer was no where to be found in her body. Now as breast cancer seems to do, it has come back. The treatment they tried is not working so they are sending her to UAB for another doctor to see if there is anything he can do. I can't even begin to imagine what she must be feeling right now, she has 8 children!
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
Psalm 23:4
The other 2 that are heavy on my heart are some dear friends of mine. I wrote back here & here about our momMEtime group & how much the friendship of these ladies mean to me. When anyone of us is walking through a trial we rally around each other doing anything we can to help carry the burden. Right now 2 of these sweet ladies are walking through trials. One I mentioned on here before, Lesley, whose daughter Gracen was hospitalized just a few weeks ago after discovering she has some bladder/kidney issues. They go to Childrens Hospital in Bham Friday the 30th to do more testing & to find out what comes next. I have been earnestly praying for peace for Lesley no matter what comes next. That she would feel the hand of the Lord holding her up. And of course we are praying for complete & total healing!
The other friend,Tabitha, we just heard from last night about her 1 month old son who has been dx with Craniosynostosis. Thankfully just this morning we heard back from her that things were not as bad as the had thought but they still want to watch him closely to see what happens in the next few months. If this doesn't correct itself that would mean surgery. We will continue to praying for healing that this sweet baby will not need surgery!
"You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever."
Psalm 23:5-6
Praying for all of these people in my life this morning, God kept bringing this passage to my mind, Psalm 23. At first I pushed it away but He continued to push back. No matter what trials we have in this life, God is always with us. He is there to guide us, to comfort us, to restore us. HE is always there! Romans 8:38-39 says, "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." NOTHING! Absolutely NOTHING can separate us from His great love! How wonderful, how powerful, how amazing, how calming to my spirit! Like the sun that breaks through the storm clouds, He is always there!
One thing that is weighing heavy on me is about my Paw-Paw, the same one I wrote about here. This coming Monday the 26th he will be having heart surgery to implant a pacemaker as well as an ablation on his heart. I don't really know the full details of the surgery but I do know this is a safer surgery than they were originally planning on doing. That being said he is 85 yrs old & any surgery much less a heart surgery is risky. Drew & I are heading to FL on Saturday to be there with my family. I wish so much that my hubby could be there with me but right now that is just not feasible. I have not allowed myself to think about the 'what ifs', if I dwell on them they would overtake me. That being said those thoughts have managed to creep in & the tears start pouring down. I have to stop myself from not drowning in emotion.
"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake."
Psalm 23:1-3
Another person weighing on my heart is a sweet lady from our previous church, Beverly. She is the wife of the church administrator, Bryan, that the GD worked with for 5 yrs. Beverly was dx several years ago with breast cancer. After surgery & chemo, her cancer was no where to be found in her body. Now as breast cancer seems to do, it has come back. The treatment they tried is not working so they are sending her to UAB for another doctor to see if there is anything he can do. I can't even begin to imagine what she must be feeling right now, she has 8 children!
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
Psalm 23:4
The other 2 that are heavy on my heart are some dear friends of mine. I wrote back here & here about our momMEtime group & how much the friendship of these ladies mean to me. When anyone of us is walking through a trial we rally around each other doing anything we can to help carry the burden. Right now 2 of these sweet ladies are walking through trials. One I mentioned on here before, Lesley, whose daughter Gracen was hospitalized just a few weeks ago after discovering she has some bladder/kidney issues. They go to Childrens Hospital in Bham Friday the 30th to do more testing & to find out what comes next. I have been earnestly praying for peace for Lesley no matter what comes next. That she would feel the hand of the Lord holding her up. And of course we are praying for complete & total healing!
The other friend,Tabitha, we just heard from last night about her 1 month old son who has been dx with Craniosynostosis. Thankfully just this morning we heard back from her that things were not as bad as the had thought but they still want to watch him closely to see what happens in the next few months. If this doesn't correct itself that would mean surgery. We will continue to praying for healing that this sweet baby will not need surgery!
"You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever."
Psalm 23:5-6
Praying for all of these people in my life this morning, God kept bringing this passage to my mind, Psalm 23. At first I pushed it away but He continued to push back. No matter what trials we have in this life, God is always with us. He is there to guide us, to comfort us, to restore us. HE is always there! Romans 8:38-39 says, "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." NOTHING! Absolutely NOTHING can separate us from His great love! How wonderful, how powerful, how amazing, how calming to my spirit! Like the sun that breaks through the storm clouds, He is always there!
What a powerful post! I think we all forget that God is control and He is always there. He wants us to cast all our cares on Him and reach out and support one another.
ReplyDeleteThank you for praying for Gracen and I will join you in praying for your Paw Paw and all the others that you mentioned.
Be careful as you drive to FL