What a whirlwind we have been on to form our family! I never had "normal" cycles, & I always had severe cramps. In 2001 I was at work & was in so much pain I had to be taken to the ER. It was there that I had my first GYN exam by an intern no less & where we first learned about the cyst. A few short weeks later I was having my first surgery to hopefully remove the cyst & when I was officially dx with Endometriosis & PCOS. David & I had only been dating weeks at this time, I never expected him to stick around, but he did. Unfortunately 6 months later I was having surgery again because the cyst were reforming & doubling in size. It was in that 2nd surgery that the doctor found the cyst had wrapped around my right ovary & the blood supply was cut off. I lost my right ovary that day & was told I would probably never be able to have children. To say I was devastated would be an understatement. I have always wanted to be a Mom & felt like that had literally just been riped from my body. It was during my 2nd night in the hospital that I found a Gideon Bible in the tray. I was so broken & I begged the Lord to help me. I read the story of Hannah & Samuel, & I knew that God was promising me that He would bless us with a child. I promised that night that if He did bless us with a child we would name him Samuel.
So jump to a year later, David & I had been married only a few months at the time. We figured why should we waste money on birth control if it's not going to matter anyway. In October of 2002 we found out I was 7 weeks prego! So say we were shocked would be an understatement! But we were so thrilled beyond belief. On May 19th 2003, the day after our 1st anniversary, Sam was born 5 weeks early. This 5lb 15oz bundle of joy that has blessed our lives in ways we could never have imagined! "For this child I have prayed & the Lord has heard my cry!" 1 Samuel 1:27
We couldn't believe how blessed we were but we decided we wanted to try again in all honesty hoping for a girl. We tried for 18 months to get prego & that included 3 months of Clomid fertility drugs. Finally we found out we were expecting, I was in FL visiting my family with Sam. David was still home working & flying down a few days later to join us. I remember screaming in glee after I saw the + sign! Another blessing! On March 25th 2006, Drew was born into this world also 5 weeks early weighing 5lbs 5 oz. Such a little thing & that hasn't changed to this day, he is still smaller that most of the other kids his age. Just a little bit that takes after his Great Mee-Mee I think! What a blessing we have been given, 2 precious boys! "Sons are a heritage from the LORD, children a reward from him." Psalm 127:3
I love my boys dearly & can't imagine life without them. However there is a small part of my heart that has always longed for a daughter. So we decided to try one more time for a baby girl. We also tried for a long time & after 3 months in to a Clomid cycle, Nov 2008 we found out we were pregnant. 2 days later I lost our 3rd child. It's been almost 2 years & I still don't understand it. But I do know that God has a reason for everything even when we can't see it. I have always felt like that sweet baby was a girl, though I never knew for sure. In my heart I have always called her Ava, our sweet rose that never got to bloom. "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you & not to harm you, plans to give you hope & a future." Jer 29:11
What a struggle we have had but what blessings we have reaped from it! Our boys are such a delight & joy to us. My purpose is to be their Mom & I pray I am doing them justice. I am so thankful to the Lord for choosing them for me. They are my greatest joy& I am blessed to be called MOM!
