We made the decision...

After a ton of prayers, lots of talks & advice, we made the big decision. I am having surgery on March 25th, just 2 short weeks away! I am doing the endometrial ablation, a laproscopy to drain the cyst, & a tubal. I pray that this is the right choice, what it comes down too, is preventing the hysterectomy if at all possible. Not having to put my body through that if I can hold off. I ask that you would all keep me in your prayers as we prepare for this & then for the surgery itself! Thanks ladies!

Doctors Appt

Why is it things never work out the way you planned?

Yep you guessed it, I still have 2 cyst on my ovary. They are smaller but not by much, which my doctor said is a good thing because that tells us that it's not cancer! CANCER? Excuse me no one told me CANCER? Apparently if you have PCOS you are at a high risk for ovarian cancer! Geez! So my options...

*Lupron-A shot that basically puts your body into menopause to make you stop ovulation, which intern stops the build of endometriosis & from cyst forming! I did this 8 yrs ago, it was one of the first things I tried, & it didn't work for me. The cyst I had ended up doubling in size & I had to have the ovary removed because the blood supply was cut off to it due to the cyst wrapping around it. So I am thinking that's not the best option for me.

*Drain the cyst & possibly do a endometrial oblation along with tying my tubes. That is the more conservative surgical option because it means I keep the ovary. However the ablation will not affect having cyst again. So basically I could be right back in there in 2 months or so with more cyst.

*Total Hysterectomy-Which would then mean hormone replacement therapy along with who knows what other side effects. This is the option my doc is recommending, due to the fact that I spend a good majority of the month in bed popping pain pills.

Basically I am headed for a hysterectomy no matter what I do, it's either now or later! I just don't know what to do. The GD says it's totally my decision, my Mom doesn't want me to have the hysterectomy, my bff says get it over with because I am in so much pain. I just don't know what the right decision is. Trust me when I am in the throws of this, I say take it all, but is that the right choice. Is there a right choice? AHHHHHHHHHH! Why can't the answer just be written out in stars in the night sky or something?

So what did you do yesterday?

I have no clue what happened! I posted a whole thing about yesterday & my doctors appt, then somehow I managed to delete it! I will try to rewrite what I said!

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Me? Let's see I was up by 7 & in the playroom/old nursery by 7:30 taking down the border in there! Had to leave by 9 for my 9:30 doctors appt (more on that below)! Met up with my bff at 10 to get her son, C, so I could watch him yesterday for her! Home by 11 after a quick trip to Home Depot for another gallon of paint! The kids had lunch & were down for naps by 11:45 & I had started painting by 12. Painting continued until 3:30 when I was finally done & exhausted! But it was a great productive day! Made even better by getting to go hang out with my girlfriends & watch "The Bachelor"(OMG!!! DeAnna comes back?!?!?! For those of you who have no idea what I am talking about then just ignore the last 2 lines!)

Anyway, on to more important details...the doctors appt. You know this whole time, while still sad, I have been at such peace about us deciding to be done. And I still am, but I go in there & I am immediately crying about it! I haven't cried in days about it, but as soon as I am in front of my wonderful doctor the tears start a flowing! It's really not that surprising because I am definitely a crier but I was surprised still! Anyway I digress, on to what he wants me to do now! So he put me on OrthoTricycleneLo & said he feels like when I am absolutely 100% sure that then we need to do a Endometrial Ablation & a Tubal. I came home last night & started looking stuff up about it & I really know I shouldn't do that because it will just scare you to death but I just don't know what to do! I was wondering if anyone out there in my wonderful bloggy land of friends have had either of these & what your outcome was?

The other interesting thing I found out is I have now been officially diagnosed with PCOS! I have always thought I might have this but it's weird to be officially dx with it! So now I am learning all about PCOS, you know on top of the fact that I already have endometriosis! From everything I am reading (again online which is probably bad) it's even more AMAZING that we have the 2 children we do! Endometriosis, only have one ovary due to Endometriosis, and now PCOS! Tell me theres not a God, seriously because I would love to tell you my story & prove you wrong! My God is the Ultimate Physician, the Creator of Life & He chose to bless me with the 2 miracle boys I have! I just can't tell you how much more blessed I feel! It's truly amazing what our God can do & I won't stop praising Him for it!