Showing posts with label Beverly. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Beverly. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

What is your legacy?

Definition of Legacy from dictionary.com "anything handed down from the past, as from an ancestor or predecessor". This word legacy has been on my heart & mind the last several days. My friend Lesley wrote about this about a week ago & it has really stuck with me. What legacy am I leaving my children? What will they say about me when I have taken my last breath?

This past Sunday night my friend Beverly went home to be with Jesus after a long battle with breast cancer. I have written about her several times before. She leaves behind a devoted husband, 8 children, parents, siblings, nieces & nephews. She was 2 months shy of her 46th birthday. She was taken to young. But in all things we know that God knows better than we do. God knows how many hairs are on our heads & how many breaths we will take. God has a plan. In my own sorrow & grief I have worried over those sweet babies left behind. I have awakened at night worried & fretting. But every time I do, God puts His hand on my shoulder & says "Don't you know I am in control? Don't you know I have a plan? Trust me!" I do know He has a plan & I know those sweet children will be okay, due mostly to the legacy Beverly is leaving behind. Her legacy will be that of faith. Never did Beverly doubt God's plan in this. She did not want to leave her husband & children but she was willing to go if that was God's plan. She knew her death would not be in vain, & that was proven even today at the funeral when at least 2 accepted Christ! Even in the valley of the shadow of death she did not fear evil or death. She knew when she took her last breath that her next would be at the foot of Jesus. Her last words were "The angels are here to get me!" And I have no doubt that the next words she heard were "Well done thy good & faithful servant!"

When I think about the Proverbs 31 woman, I think of Beverly...

10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.

11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.

12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.

13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.

14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.

15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.

16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.

17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.

18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.

19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.

20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.

21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.

22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.

23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.

24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.

25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.

26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.

27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.

28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:

29 "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."

30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

I pray that my legacy will be that. I pray that my children see the light of Jesus in me. I have to admit that they don't always. Oh God how I want to have faith that could move mountains. I want my children to know beyond a shadow of doubt that their Mom loved them & their Dad more than life itself. But that as much as I loved them, I loved the Lord even more! I want people to know that not only did I talk the talk but I also walked the walk! I want the Lord to be glorified in all that I say & do! I want to leave a legacy behind that proves Jesus was the Lord of my life! Please Lord let it be!


~Cass

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Praying Expectantly!

I can't believe how long it's been since I last posted! We have had such a busy summer, between trips to Bham & then an impromptu trip to FL last week, this last 6 weeks have flown by! Now I am getting things ready for Sam to start 2nd grade next week & then the following week Drew will start preschool 3 mornings a week. I have to say I am so excited to have both of them starting school & having a slight break 3 mornings a week! But on the other hand, this means my baby boy is starting school! How is this possible? I swear I just brought him home from the hospital yesterday! And don't even get me started on Sam starting 2nd grade! I can't even begin to believe it. They are both so excited to be starting back to school though & I know they will do great getting back into a structure & routine! Most of my summer has consisted of breaking up fights like the one I overheard this morning...

Drew to Sam: "You want a piece of me? Bring it on baby!"
Sam to Drew: "Oh yeah bring it on!"
About 2 minutes later I heard from Sam "Ouch Mommy tell Drew to get off me!"
Drew to Sam: "Oh yeah baby I got you now!"
After walking into the living room I found Sam pinned underneath Drew, little brother beating up big brother! I think I have many interesting years ahead of me to say the least!

On a much sadder note we heard today that Beverly's health is steadily declining. For those who read my blog regularly I wrote about her here & here. She is a sweet lady from our previous church who has had a reoccurance of breast cancer that has spread throughout her entire body. While none of us are God & we all know that God could put his hand on her & miraculously heal her body we also know that may not be God's plan. And after multiple 2nd, 3rd & even 4th opinions there is nothing else doctors can do. Beverly has been encouraging everyone to pray expectantly for her healing. Now in her darkest hours when it seems like her ultimate healing is soon, I would ask for all of us to pray expectantly. My heart is broken for this sweet family & for the 8 children who are having to carry this weight.


~Cass

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

There are no words...

Today is a hard day. I find it hard to think about anything else. Yesterday I wrote about a friend of ours having a recurrence of breast cancer & seeing specialist about any options. Late yesterday night we heard she doesn't have any or I should say many options. They did tell her she could go to Atlanta for experimental treatment, but ultimately there is nothing else they can do. The cancer has spread throughout & they have given her a time line. At this point that time line has not been shared however we have heard it's a short time line. As I talked with 2 sweet ladies this morning about this, Drew came & climbed in bed next to me. I was immediately taken over with grief. Beverly has 8 children, the youngest is Drew's age. I couldn't hold back the tears, the anger, the questions. I don't understand. I don't understand any of this. It's the age old question we as Christians have been asking for many years, why do bad things happen to good people? Why does God allow these sort of trials & tribulations? I don't know why. I don't have answers. I am at a loss. I am trying to hold fast to the things I said yesterday, remembering God is always there. God doesn't move. I know that He is the Ultimate Physician & He alone holds every breath we breathe. He cares about every tear we shed & every hair on our head.
He alone is God.



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